it's all about us (harrison)

by **Indigo Macmillan** Sun Nov 01, 2020 4:20 pmPermalink

"Message Harrison Jetson, ongoing..." Indigo muttered to his crystal, and wrote:

Are you alone?

by **Harrison Jetson** Sun Nov 01, 2020 4:22 pmPermalink

Harrison had been sitting alone on the couch following a long talk with Pasithea.

Yes I am. Why?

by **Indigo Macmillan** Sun Nov 01, 2020 4:24 pmPermalink

We should probably talk about what happened.

Are you OK?

by **Harrison Jetson** Sun Nov 01, 2020 4:26 pmPermalink

We do.

I am okay? I might end up drinking a whole bottle later.

by **Indigo Macmillan** Sun Nov 01, 2020 4:31 pmPermalink

I feel awful about it all.

It's probably even more awful that she didn't shout at me or anything.

She was just looking at me as though she pitied me.

by **Harrison Jetson** Sun Nov 01, 2020 4:34 pmPermalink

I had a lapse in judgment as I was so sure she wouldn't manage to get off work early.

I could tell that she really wanted to kill me. I feel bad for not being honest with her months ago.

I was thinking of the kids.

by **Indigo Macmillan** Sun Nov 01, 2020 4:54 pmPermalink

Yes, I know, I understand that.

How is she doing, by the way?

by **Harrison Jetson** Sun Nov 01, 2020 5:02 pmPermalink

I think she's just heartbroken and in shock.

She went to be with one of her colleagues.

by **Indigo Macmillan** Sun Nov 01, 2020 5:12 pmPermalink

We shouldn't have done what we did.

I feel sick with guilt.

But I can't help my feelings for you. I knew that my two options were to act on my feelings, or to cut you out completely.

I don't think I could bear the idea of never seeing you again...

by **Harrison Jetson** Sun Nov 01, 2020 5:17 pmPermalink

I feel bad. I do. I just didn't want to hurt her so directly, yet that was what I did.

I couldn't imagine not having you around.

by **Indigo Macmillan** Sun Nov 01, 2020 5:19 pmPermalink

I'm sorry, Harrison.

It wasn't just you. It was me. I had thrown myself on you.

by **Harrison Jetson** Sun Nov 01, 2020 5:20 pmPermalink

I had spent MONTHS resisting making a move. I was scared.

If she asks for a divorce, I hope the kids won't find out through the rumor mill.

by **Indigo Macmillan** Sun Nov 01, 2020 5:33 pmPermalink

Would you want a divorce?

by **Harrison Jetson** Sun Nov 01, 2020 5:34 pmPermalink

If it means I get to be with you.

by **Indigo Macmillan** Sun Nov 01, 2020 5:45 pmPermalink

I don’t like the idea of being (what Hyacinth would crudely put as) ‘a home wrecker’

But I want to be with you. Am I completely selfish?

by **Harrison Jetson** Sun Nov 01, 2020 5:47 pmPermalink

Isn't everyone selfish? How else would I have ended up being intimate with you?

by **Indigo Macmillan** Sun Nov 01, 2020 5:52 pmPermalink

I wish that it could be under different circumstances, but I can’t simply give this up.

I ardently admire and care for you.

Sometimes I can’t think of much else besides you.

by **Harrison Jetson** Sun Nov 01, 2020 5:54 pmPermalink

I feel the same.

Around you, I feel young again. It's a conundrum staying young in appearance as everyone in my age group gets older and older.

by **Indigo Macmillan** Sun Nov 01, 2020 6:01 pmPermalink

I’m glad you feel the same, Harrison.

I suppose we shouldn’t see one another until you decide things with your wife, though.

I don’t want to insult her any further than I already have.

by **Harrison Jetson** Sun Nov 01, 2020 6:06 pmPermalink

It's fine.

I may go out later. I don't want it to be just me and my record collection.

by **Indigo Macmillan** Sun Nov 01, 2020 6:09 pmPermalink

I wish you were here.

by **Harrison Jetson** Sun Nov 01, 2020 6:10 pmPermalink

You're always free to return later. I have no clue how we might go about everything, but I can find a hiding place for you.

by **Indigo Macmillan** Sun Nov 01, 2020 6:13 pmPermalink

Harrison...

by **Harrison Jetson** Sun Nov 01, 2020 6:14 pmPermalink

by **Indigo Macmillan** Sun Nov 01, 2020 6:16 pmPermalink

A hiding place. That’s funny.

Why don’t you come here?